^-^

I love you.

2011-08-16T20:44:00.001-07:00

I really can't wait until we wake up tomorrow... So I can see you again.

Fragments

2011-07-13T20:41:00.000-07:00

A pixel of your imagination has grown into more than just a fantasy.. Causing a whirlwind of knives that split right through everything that we are.

There is difficulty recollecting the once so sweet. When the sky was clear, the air was refreshing, and the ground didn't tremble..

Everything is foggy, and I've yet to see beneath the confusion.

Will the clouds disappear? Will I stumble, and get back up? Will the hurt transform into a butterfly when it's done being miserable? Or will it be stuck in it's present state?

Is it that easy for you to mask your true [un]innocent intentions? Am I just an attachment to your state of comfort? Are you compromising your happiness to get everything you want?

I know change is inevitable, but isn't love supposed to be constant in our equation? [maybe not]

What am [was] I to you?

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Random

2011-06-07T16:06:00.001-07:00

I didn't know that someone could point out so many negative things in one day...

Why is everything I do, wrong?

Why go out of the way to prove that I am wrong?

Why be with someone that does everything wrong? Or not your way?

I try damn hard at everything I do, why can't you notice the things I do right?

Am I really that horrible as you make me out to be? Should I hate myself?

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2011-05-22T12:41:00.001-07:00

Wine in the woods 2011!

Remember the times.....

2011-04-25T16:29:00.001-07:00

There was a time when everything was new, and Both of us never took each other for granted. As our relationship grew older, it not only matured but also began falling apart.

What happens when two people stop understanding and compromising to make the other happy? Or what about when one simple gesture that could save the day is overlooked? If those two people took turns giving in, could it change everything? Any issue can go from angry to sweet, if either person just learned from past reoccurring problems. I really want to believe anything can change at anytime..

But is that too far fetched?

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Chimay

2011-03-07T18:41:00.000-08:00

Oya in dc!

2011-03-05T18:45:00.000-08:00

Carbombs

2011-02-26T22:53:00.000-08:00

awwwwww

2011-02-15T19:23:00.000-08:00

Ahjuhssi Style!

2011-02-15T15:45:00.001-08:00

WTF ?!

2011-02-15T09:25:00.000-08:00

What drives a person to do such a thing??

Annoyed

2011-02-10T21:24:00.000-08:00

Maybe sometimes I should be careless and irresponsible.

Ugh !

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2011-02-08T16:37:00.000-08:00

Busy w/ his phone

2011-02-08T11:04:00.000-08:00

Chicken Pot Pie!

2011-02-07T18:32:00.001-08:00

I Love Our Apt.

2011-02-05T12:09:00.001-08:00

Sugar for my soul

2011-01-25T15:53:00.000-08:00

Healthier Alternative

2011-01-17T16:47:00.001-08:00

Chicken meatballs :)

EW

2011-01-17T06:23:00.000-08:00

Who has been polluting our garage with fried chicken? Judging from the batter, i have come to the conclusion that it is from a carry out. The garage was left open all day yesterday so I am assuming that's how the trash came in. We pay too much money to have fried chicken rolling around in our parking lot. Ugh!!

AFI

2011-01-16T18:25:00.001-08:00

Jahgz, can we please come watch blue valentine here on Friday? We can get drunk here too!

South Street Steaks

2011-01-16T16:05:00.000-08:00

Bleh

2011-01-11T20:30:00.001-08:00

It's been quite awhile since the last time I've blogged... There are a few reasons.. #1 I'm going through an odd allergic reaction. #2 I'm still not used to typing on the iPhone! Heh.

I've been sitting infront of the tv, in hope that CP wakes up to taste my cobbler. Meanwhile looking up all restaurants and menus for restaurant week. Just thought I'd plan a day for us to spend entirely together.

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Best Pizza Evar

2011-01-11T16:17:00.001-08:00

Pt. 2

2010-12-25T08:20:00.001-08:00

Thanks Baby!

2010-12-25T08:19:00.000-08:00

Cravings

2010-12-23T16:51:00.000-08:00

I guess I have to starve tomorrow.

Junkfood Day

2010-12-23T16:08:00.000-08:00

New Beginnings

2010-12-21T19:54:00.001-08:00

So I got a new phone today & I'm lovin it already!!

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Question

2010-12-17T20:44:00.000-08:00

Why am I being locked out ---- ?

The Days...When I Wasn't SICK

2010-12-02T16:56:00.000-08:00

parties = no bueno
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Craving of the Moment

2010-12-02T16:55:00.001-08:00

Mister Softee! MmMmmm.....

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Likes v.s Dislikes pt. 1

2010-11-19T22:13:00.001-08:00

Likes first, dislikes as I think of them.

Weekends off (haven't had one since May)
Lazy Sundays
Cuddling
Champagne
peonies
Aimless dates
Lingerie
Sushi
Sparkling objects
Holidays
Kisses on the neck
"I love you"s while I'm sleeping
Animals
Shoes
Sex
The food network
Discovering new places
Movies
The burn after running
Coffee
Textured stockings
Dior iconic mascara
Lush bubble bars
The feeling of cp's shaved head
Dreaming
Stars
The sky
Sweet surprises
Love letters
paychecks
Starbucks
Sugarfree diet coke
Hoop earrings
Hand sanitizer
Blankety lipstick
Hoodies
Roadtrips
A clean sink
Tabasco sauce
Oversized sunglasses
Apple picking
Electronics

To be continued...
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My First McRib!

2010-11-05T18:09:00.000-07:00

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Four Seasons

2010-11-04T08:08:00.001-07:00

Sometimes what's going on around you may be irrelevant, but as the weather changes regardless. It takes out the old and brings in the new.

New climate, fashion, emotions, and scents... That you have never experienced.. Fall always smells the same, and I absolutely love it.

As the seasons change, my love is constant.

Now, through any weather, & any season. Let's look forward to the changes that make us stronger.

I love you.
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Couldn't Resist

2010-10-25T11:37:00.000-07:00

2 for $7! Vanilla for the peach cobbler I'm baking today, & green tea just because!
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Cuties

2010-10-12T15:35:00.001-07:00

I love them!!!
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Date Night

2010-10-08T14:34:00.000-07:00

:)
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Bitchings

2010-10-02T21:33:00.001-07:00

Note: this is the only place I have to vent, so here it goes.

Today was probably one of the worst days at work I've had so far. Aside from our big events.. BOL, holidays, the nights I want to go home so bad I want to shoot myself in the face..

Today was a huge disaster. First of all, I had a meeting @ 730AM on a SATURDAY.. I didn't have to be at work until 2PM. So I get to work and find out that I've been overbooked (not my appointments). Some customers....actually, MANY.. Had requested I do their makeup. 2pm, 230pm, 3pm, 4pm, 5pm, 530pm, 6pm, and then all the little bullshit walk ups that requested the short little korean girl.

First of all, why request me and then ask me if I know how to do "black makeup".. Bitch please, I BARELY do any other makeup! "Black makeup" is my specialty. So shut the fuck up, sit down, and get the fuck outta here with that racist shit.

I did so much makeup today my body aches and my feet are bleeding. I wanted to do something to relieve stress, but it failed because I denied invites to over crowded places with too many boys!

Easily I could have said yes. But all I wanted to do was see my bf. So what can I do? Go home. & I did. I do not get excited being on the scene with a bunch of single friends looking for boys to hang with. So here I am. Isolating myself. I can't help that there is ONE person on my mind, that I'd love to see. Too bad he's not here!

The endO!
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Traffic

2010-10-01T15:40:00.000-07:00

Fuck you traffic! Eat a dick!
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Sigh

2010-09-29T12:54:00.000-07:00

I am going out to support my manager today but.. Its gloomy & I wanna be here... Making soon doo boo. :(
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Norah Jones - The Story

2010-09-29T04:19:00.000-07:00

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Work Work.

2010-09-22T06:12:00.000-07:00

A few days ago.
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I Love My CAT!

2010-09-16T20:00:00.001-07:00

...Leopard cat

:) <3
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Absolutely Not.

2010-08-21T19:23:00.001-07:00

If you're at a table, please act like a lady.
Wipe your face in the bathroom. Kthx...
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Chanel

2010-08-19T05:13:00.001-07:00

..Raincoats are attatched to the purses omg...
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A Few Days Ago!

2010-08-18T19:58:00.000-07:00

:D
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Cheekin

2010-08-15T20:06:00.000-07:00

Yangnyum .. And soju.

:D
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Breakfast

2010-08-15T14:22:00.000-07:00

Homemade blueberry belgian waffles! Nommyy
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Chinatown DC

2010-08-11T17:34:00.000-07:00

I wanna go back!
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Crappy Neighborhood

2010-08-11T15:29:00.000-07:00

Instead of repaving and painting lines..
I would have liked it SOO much better if we had EXTRA parking spaces!
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Chick N' Friends

2010-08-11T15:25:00.000-07:00

The aftermath.
It WAS 8 wings & wedges...
Now its all bonez!

(: we had a good dinner... Now time to veg out.
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Hmm.

2010-08-06T20:51:00.001-07:00

Is anger your "nice" way of showing me that you'd rather be with someone else?

Seems like it.
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Happy Hour!

2010-08-03T14:42:00.000-07:00

DC w/ the CP

:D
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Last Night's Dinner!

2010-08-02T07:35:00.000-07:00

Our very first lasagna, homemade! & the movie "Killers". It was very romantic & fun. :)

I can't wait for our DC date tomorrow! Heehee!
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Sunday Funday!

2010-08-01T12:54:00.000-07:00

We had a wonderful date last night. We went to a club alone! No friends or other couples.. It was very peaceful and we had fun jamming out together! I loved it. Now time to make lasagna for dinner!
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Rita's !

2010-08-01T12:53:00.000-07:00

What a yummy treat after target / dicks sporting goods (:
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Mom's House!

2010-07-28T19:44:00.001-07:00

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-Sunday-

2010-07-15T20:03:00.001-07:00

Relive a moment-
Sing with your heart-
Capture a memory-
Love like never before-
Let your spirit free-
Open your mind-
Breathe with your soul-..

Start a never ending circle
You & me, over and over again.

-jy-

I love you CP.

I hope we have an awesome journey sunday!
You must be fucking tired, sleep talking mumble jumble.. Haha

<3
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Untitled

2010-07-13T17:32:00.000-07:00

Don't be scared of the future, it won't get you anywhere.

Take a deep breath, hope for the best, and take a step forward. Even if the outcome isn't the "best", you've already grown as a person... Having a positive outlook.

I was telling tina, "live laugh love" is the shittiest thing ever said.... What it should be is,

"Live, cry, learn"

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Sick in the SUMMER

2010-07-08T20:41:00.001-07:00

Recently I was very sick, & it seems to have gone to the bf. Now I'm so worried, I cannot sleep!! He has cold sweats & refuses the blanket. It hurts my heart knowing he has to walk / metro / drive, to work. When I was sick, it was so hard to stand straight.. I don't even want to know what my baby has to go through... :(

Being sick, summer heat, commuting, omg... Its just so much! It makes me so depressed.

Baby, I packed some dayquil in your work bag if you read this! Please take it when you're at work. It will make things a little easier!

I really enjoyed our deep conversation today. It means a lot to me to hear how you feel about our relationship. I can't believe how much we've both changed these past 2&1/2 years. Thank you for showing me another side of you today.

I love you, always.

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Love!

2010-07-08T08:35:00.000-07:00

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First Time!

2010-07-07T17:35:00.001-07:00

Hehe cumcumber kimchi... No recipe, just winged it!
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Summer Heat

2010-07-06T21:02:00.000-07:00

I am such a lazy bitch when it comes to uploading anything.. Even if it means pictures from last year, that I haven't seen yet!

This was from dinner @ stella notte, ellicott city 06/24/10. CP&I were actually fighting.. Yes not arguing, but fighting. But I didn't end up getting birthday cake, so I wanted to go somewhere and have my cake! (Bday: 06/20)

So, crab artichoke dip, chicken piccata for CP, & scallops with spinach & risotto for me. Then pictured is my belated bday cake. (I don't really like cake, but I really wanted it that day). Lastly, a picture of CP as usual...

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Wow it is so hot right now!! I've been tossing & turning for the past 2 hours. I really don't take heat well. I prefer the cold! Hopefully I can sleep soon, I have a long day ahead of me. Maybe we'll go out for some nengmyun & froyo tomorrow..

Sigh... I am so sick of working :)
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Mosaic, Baltimore

2010-06-28T11:50:00.001-07:00

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Target

2010-06-20T11:28:00.000-07:00

How cute my sleepy heaaad
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Why (?)

2010-06-18T20:39:00.000-07:00

Would you eat next to trash? Or are you a part of it?
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Love...

2010-06-15T19:40:00.000-07:00

For some reason the sky makes me remember romance.

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Are You Bloody?

2010-06-13T09:51:00.001-07:00

:d
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Sreepy

2010-06-10T15:15:00.000-07:00

He fell asleep sitting!
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Remembering...CP

2010-06-02T21:38:00.000-07:00

The moment I fell in love with you. I couldn't control the butterflies in my heart, or the urge to be next to you.

Our relationship has changed so much, beyond our control. Its both of our faults for not remembering how we first fell in love. There were things that didn't matter, all we saw was the good in everything. These days it seems as though we look at the negative aspects of each other. I don't think we're just discovering & accepting. Its more of us nitpicking at each other. I hate it.

I remember what you said to me. It hurt a lot. When you cut open a scar too many times, it loses chance to heal. Supposedly you think someone cannot accept me the way I am...(?). Well- you're right. I agree with you. Which is why the door is open for you to leave whenever you want. I believe I am an awesome gf, despite some physical flaws I may have. Thank you for showing me that the world may also be as shallow as you were.

You haven't given me the time of day, & now I'm not so sure if I want it. Please find someone beautiful with a perfect body. All I have to offer you is my heart. I'm sorry again.

I can't sleep at night, thinking of the horrendous things you said. Nor can I look in a mirror anymore.
I hate myself and I just want to hide in a damn hole now.

I complained about you flirting with your friend during our trip to dallas, and you claim it was just friendly. Weird how she requests me as a friend and I see you wrote on her wall.....while I was at the wedding rehearsal. "Hit me up"....haha, when I'm not there right? You do the things to me & I'm still with you! How stupid am I?

Does a man with a gf do that shady shit when she isn't there? Would you have done that if I was there?! And to think I even considered forgiving you. You will never grow up. You will never commit. You will never be with one woman forever.
Maybe you need some time alone. Actually, I do too.
Give me my heart back and be on your way.

Goodbye.

After tomorrow please do not ever contact me again & I will do the same. 2 and 1/2 years means nothing, apparently...

Nothing will ever undo the scars you've burned & cut me with. Good luck in your life.

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Thoughtless

2010-06-01T20:39:00.001-07:00

When I don't blog, I feel like I don't remember what I wanted to say. I definitely need to take a few hours out to write about how I've been feeling lately.

Because my mind is clouded, & I need to organize...
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Obey the CP

2010-05-29T20:31:00.000-07:00

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Fuck

2010-05-28T17:55:00.000-07:00

Waiting sucks but I love every second with you.
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Stuck in dSC

2010-05-28T17:01:00.000-07:00

Waitin for our 720pm flight that got delayed to 905pm.

Making the best out of it!

(:
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Fuck Roses.

2010-05-20T17:53:00.001-07:00

I love these forever.
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Wine in the WOODS 2010

2010-05-16T11:26:00.000-07:00

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Lucky MOFOs

2010-05-15T06:18:00.000-07:00

That get to stay home on saturday mornings... While I have to do prom makeup all day. UGHx12580086650
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Waiting for Daddy!

2010-05-12T15:53:00.000-07:00

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Burrito

2010-05-10T16:24:00.000-07:00

:)
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Where is CP?

2010-04-29T13:28:00.000-07:00

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Denny's

2010-04-27T19:08:00.000-07:00

Fat boy status! .....I'm going right to sleep after!
:P
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I Love Free Stuff!

2010-04-21T17:18:00.000-07:00

MAC Softsac - Medium
Cleanse off oil
Gold Deposit
Funtabulous
Studio Tech
Opulash
Fab Frenzy Superglass
Gazette Grey E/S
Coral Crepe Paintpot
Made To Order L/S
Fold & Tuck L/G
#150 Brush
#239 Brush
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Where's My Tag?

2010-04-20T19:00:00.000-07:00

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I Hate the SUN. Without Coffee.

2010-04-20T18:59:00.000-07:00

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COcksuck

2010-04-17T23:00:00.001-07:00

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Repaint

2010-04-16T19:58:00.000-07:00

CP taped up my brushes so I could repaint them... Try to jack my brushes tomorrow bitches!!!
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Natural

2010-04-16T15:18:00.001-07:00

Wow. i am pretty impressed at the results of my tinted moisturizer! i swear it looks like i have foundation on, but it's just MAC's tinted moisturizer! of course i had to throw on my brows and a GAGA lip. just because i am off today does not mean i forget about viva glam friday!

anyways, so tomorrow i work at a different location.. i got chosen to do makeup for their trend show! :] well.. and today i found out that i, along with a few other artists ...are doing 240 appointments. O M G

FREAKING OUT.

on a brighter note, just got my hair done and it's so silky soft! i feel relaxed right now!...
hopefully when the CP gets home, he'll pull my hair out after dinna.

XOXO

Nommi

2010-04-13T19:30:00.001-07:00

Peronis & tiramisu!

<3
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Reality

2010-04-12T21:53:00.000-07:00

What is it really?

People pretending to care about you so their lives can be simpler.

I do not need that fucking shit!

So go fool another bitch.

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Champagne in a Paper Cup

2010-04-12T20:40:00.000-07:00

Or beer in a wine glass (?)
How cute CP is!
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Bfast @ Mimi's Cafe

2010-04-12T10:14:00.000-07:00

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I Miss Hawaii

2010-04-11T21:18:00.001-07:00

:(
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Hangover Helper

2010-04-10T06:12:00.000-07:00

Got an extra for the lover. Not really hungover but.... I need water!
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Lookin Grimey

2010-04-09T18:34:00.000-07:00

Afta work! Long ass day...
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Beautiful Day

2010-04-09T07:11:00.000-07:00

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Impressed

2010-04-08T19:45:00.000-07:00

CP cooked me mandu gook & kimchi bokeum bap.
What a perfect meal on a rainy ass day! It tasted amazing. I'm happy & full. Time for a jaws bar + the office.

( :
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Slow Day @ Work

2010-04-08T19:37:00.000-07:00

= other work!
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Izzy!

2010-04-08T07:48:00.000-07:00

What a cutie!!!
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I Love Food

2010-04-07T16:30:00.000-07:00

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Union Jacks

2010-04-07T13:32:00.000-07:00

Just opened. Love the set up.
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